Elemental Light Mage

Chapter 438 Antidote and Painkillers

"I don't know how to say it, and I don't really want to say it..."

Xi Yeming's childish nature was fully exposed. Being fragile, he didn't want to delve into dangerous topics and get hurt again.

"Do you not know how to say it, or do you not want to say it?"

Xi Yeming hesitated and murmured: "Both..."

"Both, then neither," Xi Leqiu said with a confident smile, "What makes you unhappy is probably the deeper 'reason' behind the reason."

Hua Wan, who couldn't understand Xi Leqiu's words, asked, "What do you mean by a reason beneath a reason?"

"People like Xiao Ming usually consider themselves before deciding to deal with sensitive matters, but in fact, they are inseparable from their environment and cannot avoid examining the "outside world". "

"You don't understand?" Hua Wan tilted her head.

Xi Yeming said with shame: "Aunt, there is really no need to show off your long speech..."

Xi Leqiu didn't pay much attention to her nephew's slight doubts, but tentatively guessed, "Is it something related to the queen?"

"..."

"You guessed it right, didn't you?"

"Can't argue with that."

"You're really bad at lying to people who are soft on you."

Xi Yeming admitted defeat and asked, "Compared to this, why was my aunt able to guess the correct answer?"

"Do you even need to ask? This is the Queen's palace, and what you just said clearly means you want me not to get involved."

The reason why he didn't want Xi Leqiu to get involved is that there is only Xi Yungeng, and Xi Yungeng's position in Xi Yeming's heart is obviously in conflict with that of Queen Milian Alu.

"You probably figured out that echo magic can't detect what you're thinking, or that I won't use echoes to invade your heart, so you deliberately used those obviously difficult words to get angry."

“Even if you don’t get help, it won’t be someone else’s fault, but your own inhumanity.”

When he read this, Xileqiu felt a lump in his throat as he recalled the figure that only appeared in his memory.

"Sister really taught you to be so sensible. You must have suffered a lot to be able to bear the grievances alone, right?"

"That's why I hate a sister like that..."

"Eh?"

Xi Yeming couldn't help but let out a puzzled sound when he heard that his aunt hated his adoptive mother.

"When Xi's family was ransacked, it was my sister who stepped out to protect me and volunteered to become a candidate for the Death Blade Guard. That's how I survived."

"It turns out that my mother and my aunt had such a past."

Xi Yungeng, who never revealed magic to his adopted son, naturally could not tell him such a past. Xi Yeming realized belatedly that he knew very little about his adoptive mother.

"So when I heard that my sister would actually help a stranger, I felt it was very absurd but true."

Xi Yeming understood that his aunt didn't really hate his mother, but was worried that she seemed to never consider her own safety.

Xi Yungeng is that kind of person, selfless and almost perfect, so Xi Yeming, who grew up under her care, almost replicated his adoptive mother's style one to one.

But even though they are replicas, their personalities are completely different. Xi Yeming is more introverted and doubtful about his own feelings. In order to achieve his goal, he has to pretend that he knows nothing and "cheat" himself.

Xi Yeming affirmed: "Yes, I have always believed that my mother is definitely a noble hero. She can't be the kind of person that Du Zizhen said."

"What a good child you are," Xi Leqiu agreed with her nephew's words, "It's worth it that your sister loves you."

"But such a gentle and strong mother was killed by the Imperial Emperor's "Scale Guards."

As Xi Yeming became more lonely, the truth gradually emerged.

The Scale Guards are comparable to the "Death Blade Guards" of the Kingdom of Zelicia in terms of national status. They are both extensions of the political center and play the role of black gloves.

The only difference between the two is that the "Scale Guards" are rarely seen in the eyes of the world. The general public may even think that the "Scale Guards" are simply a legend, a legend belonging to the emperor.

"I don't know whether I should help the Queen or not. She is one of the culprits who started the war and the wife of the Emperor who killed my mother. But the Queen is also my biological mother, and the Emperor is even more my..."

"I see, Xiao Ming is worried about this," Hua Wan almost understood the pain that the junior was going through, "It is indeed a difficult question to decide."

Should I choose revenge for my adoptive mother? Or should I choose the life of my biological mother?

"I thought I could escape forever by being with my adopted daughter, Bi Nai, and that if I lost my leisure time, I would be able to escape from this sea of ​​suffering. However, Du Zizhen and the Queen's illness dragged me back to reality. Sooner or later, I will have to face this problem."

Seeing Xi Yeming’s sad face, the two elders Hua Wan and Xi Leqiu couldn’t help but sympathize with him.

"My life is such a rotten thing. I can't find anything satisfactory about it."

"Xiao Ming, do you know?"

"Um……?"

Hua Wan looked at the deep night sky and murmured, "A person's life is a huge disease. Even if a little bit is cured, the rest of the body will continue to ache. It is possible that one will never find the antidote to cure this disease in a lifetime, and will leave this world with regrets and be free from this pain."

Xi Leqiu echoed, “But life is not a disease that comes along the way, and pain is not something that accompanies you all the way.”

"Many people say that time and other things are just quack medicines that cannot heal the pain in your heart, but I don't think so. Although it is difficult to find the antidote for life in this world, there are still many painkillers in life that can give you a break."

"The painkiller of life...?"

This statement was really fresh, and what Xi Yeming did not expect was that it came from the mouth of Senior Hua Wan.

"Or maybe life is not a disease for you at all, and you just encountered a setback in life."

"Eh?" Xi Yeming didn't understand why Senior Hua Wan overturned his previous conclusion, "Why did you change the reasoning again?"

"Because life is not unique," Hua Wan gently tapped Xi Yeming's brow, "It can be a question, it can be an answer, and it can also be a friend who will accompany you for a lifetime."

"Then my life friends are really troublesome, hahaha..."

Xi Yeming was amused by Senior Hua Wan's words. He hadn't laughed so hard in a long time. Now, in front of the two elders, he finally released some of his nature that had been suppressed for a long time.

At the same time, my fragile heart seemed to be repaired little by little and slowly put back together.

"Yes, the most important thing people should learn is how to get along with "life", so that at least you and "life" will not hand in a blank paper."